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Fear in everything I do

Ever since I have been a mother, I have had these fears in my mind which keep haunting me time and again. The fear that my child will have a big fall somewhere and be maimed for life or that he will get kidnapped from the mall. I understand these are possible and can happen to anyone considering that Luck does run out on you at times.Then that also brings me to the thought that there are so many unforeseen fears like this that keep us from living our life the way we want to.Firstly ,we are constantly living in the fear of failure and death. These are the biggest of all fears that I have noticed in most people that I interact with.
Just like the Guilt list I created yesterday, I can create a list for fear also.
Fear of the unknown ,the future
Fear of commitment towards a person,a job, an idea etc etc...
Fear of becoming a huge success, such that one cant handle that success,
Fear of discovering a negative trait and side to our otherwise congenial and pleasant personality a.k.a movie "Shaitan"
Fear of discovering that you are being cheated on by someone close to you
Fear of drowning in the deep sea,dying in an air crash,an accident on the road
Fear of crossing your boundary to discover something bigger within ourselves
Fear of learning something from someone younger than ourselves
Fear of not knowing what to do in an emergency
Fear of taking that first step towards anything that seems unattainable
Fear of asking for what should be rightfully ours
Fear of approaching authority for justice/fair treatment etc etc
As again, I can keep going with this list...the point is while we all live with these fears, not all of us know how to deal with them,so much so that if someone confides in us with these fears,we would be more than willing to give advice and suggestions,but if we ourselves were faced with the same fear, we would not be able to follow our own advice. I dont know if it's human nature or that somewhere we are all the same.
Life itself is scary for someone who is terminally ill or is under manic depression and so while some do succumb to the other end, but there are others who do manage to survive.These survivors are my inspiration to overcome my measly but still very real fears.

P.S: Once at a party I discovered another woman wearing the exact same dress as the one I was wearing...ever since I have developed this fear of wearing the same outfit as another...no it doesnt mean I stopped going for parties,silly! I just started shopping in different places!Duh!
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