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So there is confusion and then there is chaos...none of which leave you feeling any better than you already do... Confusion is about choices Choices is about taking decisions Decisions is about clarity Clarity is about thought or thoughts Thought is about confusion. So if you have thoughts...you will have confusion and chaos...but what may-mind you the word is "may"-not lead to it is the fact that you can choose your thoughts. You can or atleast may want to decide that what you want is peace and bliss; therefore it may be prudent to avoid negative or multiple instances of unfavorable thoughts. So if you want a happier, confusion and chaos free life...simplifying matters that lead to lesser choices and options is one route that can be taken. The other option is to be able to wait it out...be paitent.If you have that virtue in you or you can find that within you, to be able walk through the jungle till you reach the highway then it can lead to some fantastic revelation...

So I gave up a dream...or atleast as I tell everyone else that I have put it on hold for a while( Will I ever go back to working on it,is a very good question that stares in my face). So would that make me a loser,probably yes ( in the eyes of those wearing conventional glasses).But does it spell doom and gloom to me...I am not so sure yet,but it definitely is a big relief. It feels like a burden off my mind. I feel like I do have to live up to my own expectations any more. Honestly cause I already have others from my past that I am still living up to or atleast refound them to live up to. And those are more to do with people important to me in my life.I do think living it up to my closest and dearest would be a lot more satisfying than struggling and grappling on to something that just seems too cool to do,or is probably the newest trend to keep up with. Yes, I am going back to being a regular working professional versus holding on to becoming the "next" hot-shot entrepr...