Crossroads or more like fork roads, where you don't exactly know which path to follow and which path to leave behind.
I think I'll go with fork roads for my situation at the moment. Crossroads would just complicate matters more.
So you have done your evaluations, your reviews, your introspection and all else there is to do to get a clear vision of where your life is going to go and then suddenly, when you're about to reach the visualised destination of your life, it all comes to a screeching halt.And then you end up in a state of total shock and inertia. It all start weighing down on you. You are no longer sure of yourself , whether all that review and reading into your mind stuff was enough or even worth it. They do say that when you make plans , God laughs at them. But this isn' t about having a plan. Its about who you want to be and what you'd like your life to be. Its kinda different from having a set plan.
So once you're halted and are in a state of rude shock, what is the next best course of action ( considering ,you believe you already took that)? Honestly ,I am not sure myself. Its something that is taking some serious rounds within the crevices of my mind. When all options were weighed and the pros and cons tested,was when the earlier path was chosen.The halt,the inertia ,the shock is hard to shake off. People say perseverance pays, and therefore no matter what causes the halt or what leads you to the shock, you got to keep at it.
This is different, cause you're not sure if you were traversing the correct path in the first place.
You were actually moving on the path with someone and that someone decided to take an about turn and re-invent the wheel.
And that wheel is not for you to drive.So what can you do. Do you still keep moving forward by yourself, even if it feels totally unsure and unreal?
Earlier in such situations,I used to wait for signs from the larger universe to show me or atleast ask for the Universe to send some of those inanimate, invisible secret codes!
Invariably I got them, at times more obvious than others.
This time either there is something seriously wrong with the path that I have been forced to standstill on or I am unable to decipher the secret language of the universe.
This brings me to the other point of this whole being brought to a standstill perspective... and that is having to do all the evaluations, introspection, retrospection etc. all over again!Cause remember it is a lot of work and taxing on the brain at the same time.The thought of having to go through all that pain and realisation, makes me squirm.The thought of reinventing the wheel, going back to the drawing board thing scares me. There I said it!
I probably sound like a whiner and a quitter...I assure I am none of that. I have been a solutions person always! Maybe this is my way of searching for the cipher code...I don't know.
But the forked path is there,I can see it. And the path that I have been trudging myself on, for this long,seems laden with not just hurtful,pointed pebbles but also boulders that are not just hard to push aside, but also to break down into smaller pieces such that they can be hand-picked to put aside.
Is the other path easier to walk on? I cannot be 100% sure on that either.As its said, the grass always seems greener on the other side of the fence.And it probably is. The question that has to be answered is, do I want the grass under my feet to be greener than it already is.
This is the state I most dislike, when there are too many questions and not many answers to each. Its worse than having too many options to choose from.
It doesn't end here....more on this later...
My 2 pence tip: Dont be the person in khakis and flats when in a room full of seniors at work.Stand out, Stand tall! And you know what you gotta do for that now, dont you!:) Happy Being Different!
I think I'll go with fork roads for my situation at the moment. Crossroads would just complicate matters more.
So you have done your evaluations, your reviews, your introspection and all else there is to do to get a clear vision of where your life is going to go and then suddenly, when you're about to reach the visualised destination of your life, it all comes to a screeching halt.And then you end up in a state of total shock and inertia. It all start weighing down on you. You are no longer sure of yourself , whether all that review and reading into your mind stuff was enough or even worth it. They do say that when you make plans , God laughs at them. But this isn' t about having a plan. Its about who you want to be and what you'd like your life to be. Its kinda different from having a set plan.
So once you're halted and are in a state of rude shock, what is the next best course of action ( considering ,you believe you already took that)? Honestly ,I am not sure myself. Its something that is taking some serious rounds within the crevices of my mind. When all options were weighed and the pros and cons tested,was when the earlier path was chosen.The halt,the inertia ,the shock is hard to shake off. People say perseverance pays, and therefore no matter what causes the halt or what leads you to the shock, you got to keep at it.
This is different, cause you're not sure if you were traversing the correct path in the first place.
You were actually moving on the path with someone and that someone decided to take an about turn and re-invent the wheel.
And that wheel is not for you to drive.So what can you do. Do you still keep moving forward by yourself, even if it feels totally unsure and unreal?
Earlier in such situations,I used to wait for signs from the larger universe to show me or atleast ask for the Universe to send some of those inanimate, invisible secret codes!
Invariably I got them, at times more obvious than others.
This time either there is something seriously wrong with the path that I have been forced to standstill on or I am unable to decipher the secret language of the universe.
This brings me to the other point of this whole being brought to a standstill perspective... and that is having to do all the evaluations, introspection, retrospection etc. all over again!Cause remember it is a lot of work and taxing on the brain at the same time.The thought of having to go through all that pain and realisation, makes me squirm.The thought of reinventing the wheel, going back to the drawing board thing scares me. There I said it!
I probably sound like a whiner and a quitter...I assure I am none of that. I have been a solutions person always! Maybe this is my way of searching for the cipher code...I don't know.
But the forked path is there,I can see it. And the path that I have been trudging myself on, for this long,seems laden with not just hurtful,pointed pebbles but also boulders that are not just hard to push aside, but also to break down into smaller pieces such that they can be hand-picked to put aside.
Is the other path easier to walk on? I cannot be 100% sure on that either.As its said, the grass always seems greener on the other side of the fence.And it probably is. The question that has to be answered is, do I want the grass under my feet to be greener than it already is.
This is the state I most dislike, when there are too many questions and not many answers to each. Its worse than having too many options to choose from.
It doesn't end here....more on this later...
My 2 pence tip: Dont be the person in khakis and flats when in a room full of seniors at work.Stand out, Stand tall! And you know what you gotta do for that now, dont you!:) Happy Being Different!
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